Just.

When you look at a single word by itself without a sentence it seems alien to you. I took a photograph of the setting sun at my cottage. It was probably one of the last days I was there, and during the week I didn’t really get up to much other than to relax on the island. I know when I return I have to start looking for a job and start the rest of my life. Something I look forward to, and something I am scared of at the same time because nothing is absolute. I take the Polaroid out of the camera and hold it up blocking the sun from my eyes. It flaps in the wind a bit and slowly and surely it develops from a faded look to full colour. There is nothing inspirational about this photograph to me. I have taken so many sunsets at this location because it is right outside on my front yard. To me it is just another sunset. Over the progression of my life I have had many cameras, I think I started from those disposable cameras, to a Nikon 35mm camera, to a digital camera, and then to Polaroid.

The beauty of the Polaroid is in the developing, because there are so many ways to manipulate the outcome. I like to leave it as is though, to see how the camera wants it to be developed. In this case everything looks like a silhouette to the sunset. A bit of the purple sky shows up too in the corner. Wonderful. I place it back into the camera for holding.

I use to love this tree growing up. I remember moments in my life where I would just sit up top the branch up high and look out to the river in the distance. I would sit up there for hours thinking to myself. I wonder what I was thinking about back then; such a tame moment in our lives when we were young.

I walked back in my cottage and I lay in bed listening to my MD Walkman and started to think about my life growing up. My experiences and how they have shaped me over the years. I also think back to a time when I was taking a Cultural Studies course in the summertime, and we actually had a “Show And Tell” as one of our final assignments. I brought in a photo album of my pictures from my 35mm camera. I remember what my professor, Jonathon Bordo, said about it as he gazed upon the four-squared pages with photos in it.

“You know, I wish we were able to do the Photograph section of this course, because it is amazing how this to you and me may seem like just a sunset, but to be a part of the moment is something indescribable.”

The sun finally started to disappear and in the waning light through my window I caught a glimpse of the bluish hue sky before it settled to darkness.

music to accompany the blog: John Mayer – The Heart Of Life.